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This morning I stepped outside and leaned against the white railing on my back landing. The air was cool and a little damp, just on the edge of being cold. I could hear Route 15 in the distance—steady traffic, the hum of engines, and the faint echo of it all carried through the sound barriers. There was also a low background buzz that blended into the morning in a way you almost stop noticing.

But what I noticed first was a single blackbird.

It was sitting at the very top of a bare winter tree, right out in the open. No cover, no movement—just perched there, still and present. I stood there longer than I meant to, just watching it.

The tree itself still looked like winter. The branches were bare, worn in shades of brown and gray. There were small hints of green starting to show in the distance, signs that spring is on its way, but the branches haven’t quite caught up yet. It’s that in-between season where things are beginning to change, but not fully there yet.

Around the blackbird, other birds were active. Some were flying in pairs, like the cardinals I noticed nearby. Others moved together, part of the rhythm of the morning. But this one bird stayed alone, high up on that branch, not really bothered by any of it.

To me, it stood out as a kind of quiet courage.

I’ve recently come through a season of loss, and in many ways my grief feels similar to that morning air—fresh in its awareness, something I’m still learning to carry each day. It’s not always visible to others, but it’s present for me in the background as I move through life.

Watching that bird made me realize something. It didn’t seem concerned with being part of everything happening around it. It wasn’t hidden, and it wasn’t striving. It simply stayed where it was—present, still, and steady.

That moment reminded me that seasons don’t change all at once. Winter slowly gives way to spring. Growth begins quietly before it’s fully visible. And even in the middle of transition, life keeps moving forward.

Scripture says, “To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven” (Ecclesiastes 3:1). That really resonated with me this morning.

And, “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it” (John 1:5).

Sometimes encouragement doesn’t come in big or obvious ways. Sometimes it comes in a quiet moment—just noticing something simple—reminding you that even in a season that feels unfinished, light is still coming, and life is still unfolding.

Even in grief, there is still movement forward. Even in stillness, there is purpose. And even in what feels bare, there is still something meaningful taking place.

Reflection:

What season are you in right now—and where might you notice quiet signs of light still present, even if they’re small?

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Yesterday afternoon, I was standing out on the back porch, just praying and talking to God. It was quiet, a little breezy, and I was carrying this deep sense of gratitude.

I had just read a poem my late paternal grandmother, Marion Riley Brown, wrote years ago. In it, she mentioned me—alongside my cousin Jimmy and my brother Billy. I was only two years old at the time she wrote it, just a baby really. But in three simple sentences, she saw me. She expressed love for me. And she hoped good things for my life.

I’m sixty now. And reading those words—it hit something in me. Something tender. Something I didn’t even realize was still waiting to be healed

So I stood there on the porch, thanking God for letting that poem come into my life at just the right moment. I was crying, yes—but it wasn’t just sadness. It was release. Gratitude. Wonder.

Then something happened that I’ve never experienced before.

As I prayed, I felt this overwhelming sense of presence. I can’t describe it perfectly, but I’ll try. It was like… a knowing. A warmth. A feeling of being completely accepted and safe. Like being wrapped in a hug you didn’t even know you needed.

And then it clicked.

In that moment, God was letting me feel the love of my grandmother. Not just remember it—feel it.

It was so real. So gentle. So familiar. I wasn’t scared. I wasn’t confused. It felt like home. Like something I had always known but had never quite touched.

And I don’t ever want to forget it. That comfort. That sacred kind of peace. That deep, quiet knowing that I am loved—by her, still.

I believe God gave me that moment not just to remember her love, but to experience it. To heal something in me. To remind me that love doesn’t end. It reaches. It lingers. And sometimes—when we need it the most—it finds its way back to us.

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This morning, I woke up to the sound of rain and distant sirens. The air was damp and chilly—one of those mornings that invites reflection. And so, I found myself thinking, not in a way that brought sadness, but in a way that helped me learn.

Lately, I’ve been revisiting my past, not to dwell on it, but to understand it—to recognize patterns, appreciate what served me well, and let go of what no longer fits. Today, my thoughts wandered to the many relationships I’ve experienced, and how they evolve over time. In the midst of that reflection, I was reminded of Jeremiah 31:3:

“I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.”

God’s love is unwavering. It doesn’t depend on circumstances or the passage of time, and it offers a powerful reminder that love, when seen through His lens, isn’t confined by the past—it can evolve and still hold profound meaning.

I recalled one particularly memorable conversation from years ago. In that moment, when everything felt both fragile and full of possibility, the other person softly admitted, “I wish I had been more patient back then.” I remember nodding, feeling the weight of those words as if they were my own. That exchange wasn’t about rewriting history; it was about understanding it and learning from every shared regret and joy. We forgave not out of obligation, but because we chose to let those moments teach us how to move forward.

Protecting my peace isn’t selfish—it’s essential. Recently, when planning a meeting with someone from my past, I deliberately chose a neutral space where I could feel safe, free from the weight of old emotions. This morning, when I saw the rain, my instinct whispered, Maybe today isn’t the right day for this conversation. And rather than push ahead, I listened. Timing isn’t just about schedules—it’s about emotional readiness.

Love in its truest form isn’t about keeping score; it’s about choosing grace and allowing healing to take root. 1 Peter 4:8 reminds us, “Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.” In every relationship—be it with family, friends, or past partners—love has the power to mend, transform, and endure, even as circumstances change.

So today, instead of forcing an outcome, I’m sitting with these reflections. I don’t have all the answers, but I do know this: growth often comes from seeing things differently, and sometimes, love means letting go with grace. God’s love remains, as steady as the rain and as constant as the changing seasons of our lives.

I invite you to join me in this reflection. Have you ever had a conversation that reshaped your understanding of love? Is there a moment in your past that, in hindsight, taught you an unexpected lesson? I’d love to hear your thoughts and experiences as we journey together toward healing and growth.

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Seen

During one of my hardest seasons, when I felt lost and overwhelmed, a close friend from church reminded me that my worth isn’t measured by my struggles but by God’s love for me. After a Sunday service, she looked me in the eyes and said, “You are deeply loved, chosen, and seen by God, even when you don’t feel it.” In that moment, I felt a weight lift off my heart. It was exactly what I needed to hear.

Soon after, another friend from church showed up unexpectedly at my front door. She shared that she had felt an urging to come see me. Little did she know how lonely and isolated I had been feeling. Her visit wasn’t just a coincidence—it was God’s way of reminding me that I wasn’t forgotten. That simple act of showing up renewed my sense of hope and reminded me that even in my hardest moments, God sees me, loves me, and sends people to remind me of His presence.

If you’re struggling to see your worth, I understand—I’ve been there too. There were times when I felt unseen, isolated, and questioned whether I mattered. But God met me in those moments, sometimes through an unexpected visit, a kind word, or a quiet reassurance in my spirit. And I want you to know the same is true for you: you are not alone, and your value has never been in question. God created you with purpose, and nothing you’ve been through—no loss, no hardship, no mistake—can change how much He loves you. You don’t have to earn His love—it’s already yours.

I know how hard it can be to hold onto that truth when life feels heavy. But even when you don’t feel it, remember that you are deeply loved, chosen, and seen by God. He has never forgotten you. As Jeremiah 31:3 says, “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” And in Romans 5:8, “But God shows His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” His love is constant, unchanging, and fully yours.

Just like He sent people to remind me of His love when I needed it most, I want to be that reminder for you. I’m here for you, and more importantly, He is too.

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Some days, the smallest things feel like the final straw. You know what I mean—the tiny, insignificant moment that somehow sends you over the edge.

For me, it was laundry day. I was just trying to get one simple task done when I managed to spill a handful of Downy fabric softener beads all over the floor. Ever tried cleaning those things up? They roll, bounce, and scatter like they have a personal vendetta against you. I swear some of them are still hiding under my washing machine, plotting their next move.

In the grand scheme of life, this should’ve been no big deal. But in that moment? Catastrophe. The beads might as well have been tiny landmines, each one setting off a fresh wave of frustration.

It reminded me of the childhood game Don’t Break the Ice—one more crack, and the whole thing crumbles. Some days, life is just like that. No matter how much effort I put in, no matter how well I try to plan, it still feels like everything is falling apart.

And lately, that feeling has been all too familiar.

My 84-year-old mother, who we lovingly call Nona, recently moved into a personal care community. We had planned, prepared, and prayed for a smooth transition. But after just 10 days, it became clear that this wasn’t the right fit for her. So, we had to start all over again—packing, moving, adjusting.

At that point, I was beginning to wonder if I had somehow offended the Lord Himself. I mean, I was really trying here, doing my best, checking all the boxes, and yet, nothing seemed to be going the way I needed it to. I was tired, frustrated, and beginning to lose hope that we’d ever find a place where she would be comfortable and cared for.

Ever been there? Staring at your life, arms crossed, saying, Really, God?

It’s in these moments that I have to remind myself of Romans 8:28:

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.”

I expect good results from my effort. But God’s “good” is different from mine. I often expect His blessings to be instant, comfortable, and exactly how I envisioned them. But sometimes, His good comes through struggle, refinement, and learning to trust Him in the unknown.

The Bible gives us a great example of this in Genesis 50:20, where Joseph tells his brothers:

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good.”

Joseph went through betrayal, slavery, and imprisonment before he ever saw how God was working things out. And let’s be real—if Joseph were anything like me, he probably spent a lot of time thinking, Well, this is just great. My life is a disaster.

But God had a plan. And even though Joseph couldn’t see it at the time, every detour, every hardship, was leading him exactly where he needed to be.

Now, if you know me, you know I can’t resist a good joke. Humor is my survival tool—it’s what gets me through the tough seasons. And sometimes, even in the middle of frustration, God gives us a reason to laugh.

Like the night my mom moved into her new retirement community. She was adjusting her electric recliner and, well… let’s just say things didn’t go as planned. She pressed the wrong button, and before she knew it, she was reclined all the way back, legs straight up in the air, like a stranded turtle.

Who did she call for help? My brother. In Florida. From Pennsylvania.

I can just imagine her frantically telling him, “Come get me down!” Meanwhile, I’m sure he was thinking, Mom, I love you, but unless I suddenly develop teleportation skills, you might have to call someone closer.

That moment—though probably not funny to her at the time—became one of those stories we’ll laugh about for years. And it’s a reminder for me: Sometimes I get myself into a mess and believe I’m completely defeated, but I don’t see the whole picture. I forget that I’m not the one in control.

God is.

If I’ve learned anything lately, it’s that I need to lean into my faith and surrender my plans. I need to trust that even when things don’t go my way—even when the Downy beads scatter, or life feels like it’s cracking beneath me—God is still working.

So, if you’re feeling overwhelmed today, remember this: God isn’t wasting this season. He is using it, shaping you, and working for your good.

And in the meantime? Find something to laugh about. It might just be the thing that gets you through.

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